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Some things, about me, that no one knows. Hmmm. My first response to such a question is, well, there is nothing that fits that description. But maybe that isn't the case.
Some things:
1. I love syndicated television. I watch old episodes of Frasier every night before I go to bed, and old episodes of Angel every morning when I wake up.
2. I realize I am a narcissist. I may be a self-deprecating narcissist, but I am a narcissist nonetheless.
3. Somehow, I think that admitting early and often to my flaws (the narcissism amongst them) absolves me for being blamed for them.
3.5. Yes, number 3 above is ridiculous.
4. I would like to be a writer, because writing makes me happy, but I do not think I could provide for even my most basic needs doing so.
5. I don't think I want kids, but I am open to the idea that I might change my mind. However, I have a feeling that, with all that I have done to my body over the years, I am not going to be able to.
6. Right now, I find Justin Timberlake *really, really* attractive, however, two years ago, I thought he looked like a shorn chicken (plucked chicken?). On the other hand, I used to think that Brad Pitt was really sexy, and now I find him completely uninspiring.
7. My weight problem, so to speak, is not literal poundage, but rather that I can't seem to ignore it. And the attention I pay to my body image is oftentimes debilitating. And I don't mean in the times when I am too thin for my frame, but rather when I am probably circling around the puffy side of normalish, but I feel so distended and awful, it makes it difficult for me to participate in my life like a normal person. At such times, I feel like a linebacker in comparison to *everyone* around me and all I want to do is hide. I fight it, but it is what I think about 90% of the time.
8. Somehow I manage to hold on to an exceptional group of friends. This always gives me hope that I am a better person than I think I am; and they inspire me to keep working on trying to be a better, less selfish and more giving person. I am lucky to have them. It cannot be said enough.
9. I really like to give advice. I am very cognizant that this is an exceedingly odd habit for someone who has an awfully hard time following it.
10. The best part of my job is not how much money I make, but rather that it allows me not to have to think about money.
11. I have a very odd relationship with my family. We can all go months (and some, years) without speaking to one another, even when in close proximity, and that is just status quo. And when we do interact, the results are often quite rocky. This is not much of a surprise I think to those who know me now, however, what might be more surprising is that my siblings and I were very, very, very close growing up (i.e. till I left for college). We hung out together all the time and, though most of us were pretty social, we were each others closest friends. We also spent a fair amount of time with our parents, dysfunctional as they may be, as there was family dinner at least 4 or 5 nights a week. I miss that.
12. In the three years I have lived here, I still have never taken the bus in the City in which I live.
13. I re-read every e-mail I send after I send it.
14. Should I ever happen to get married, Britney Spears will be played at my reception. No exceptions.
15. I believe in God, but I am not particularly religious. Religious zealotry scares me.
16. I worry and stress a lot, but in the end, I regret very little. There are a couple of things though that I wish mightily that I could change. I am working on one of them now.
17. I am messy.
18. I really enjoy movies, television shows, and books with endings I do not expect.
19. I love meeting other people's families.
Some things:
1. I love syndicated television. I watch old episodes of Frasier every night before I go to bed, and old episodes of Angel every morning when I wake up.
2. I realize I am a narcissist. I may be a self-deprecating narcissist, but I am a narcissist nonetheless.
3. Somehow, I think that admitting early and often to my flaws (the narcissism amongst them) absolves me for being blamed for them.
3.5. Yes, number 3 above is ridiculous.
4. I would like to be a writer, because writing makes me happy, but I do not think I could provide for even my most basic needs doing so.
5. I don't think I want kids, but I am open to the idea that I might change my mind. However, I have a feeling that, with all that I have done to my body over the years, I am not going to be able to.
6. Right now, I find Justin Timberlake *really, really* attractive, however, two years ago, I thought he looked like a shorn chicken (plucked chicken?). On the other hand, I used to think that Brad Pitt was really sexy, and now I find him completely uninspiring.
7. My weight problem, so to speak, is not literal poundage, but rather that I can't seem to ignore it. And the attention I pay to my body image is oftentimes debilitating. And I don't mean in the times when I am too thin for my frame, but rather when I am probably circling around the puffy side of normalish, but I feel so distended and awful, it makes it difficult for me to participate in my life like a normal person. At such times, I feel like a linebacker in comparison to *everyone* around me and all I want to do is hide. I fight it, but it is what I think about 90% of the time.
8. Somehow I manage to hold on to an exceptional group of friends. This always gives me hope that I am a better person than I think I am; and they inspire me to keep working on trying to be a better, less selfish and more giving person. I am lucky to have them. It cannot be said enough.
9. I really like to give advice. I am very cognizant that this is an exceedingly odd habit for someone who has an awfully hard time following it.
10. The best part of my job is not how much money I make, but rather that it allows me not to have to think about money.
11. I have a very odd relationship with my family. We can all go months (and some, years) without speaking to one another, even when in close proximity, and that is just status quo. And when we do interact, the results are often quite rocky. This is not much of a surprise I think to those who know me now, however, what might be more surprising is that my siblings and I were very, very, very close growing up (i.e. till I left for college). We hung out together all the time and, though most of us were pretty social, we were each others closest friends. We also spent a fair amount of time with our parents, dysfunctional as they may be, as there was family dinner at least 4 or 5 nights a week. I miss that.
12. In the three years I have lived here, I still have never taken the bus in the City in which I live.
13. I re-read every e-mail I send after I send it.
14. Should I ever happen to get married, Britney Spears will be played at my reception. No exceptions.
15. I believe in God, but I am not particularly religious. Religious zealotry scares me.
16. I worry and stress a lot, but in the end, I regret very little. There are a couple of things though that I wish mightily that I could change. I am working on one of them now.
17. I am messy.
18. I really enjoy movies, television shows, and books with endings I do not expect.
19. I love meeting other people's families.
posted by CLC at
2:38 PM
3 Comments:
We are taking the bus . . . soon. I love the bus. It's a rolling mental institution and very convenient.
Yes - in fairness, I usually take the Cable Car to work & not the Muni. But, I do love Muni. I love that it's a dollar to get up the hills. I take the 1 California a lot from downtown & that's not a terribly gross bus. You do have to look before you sit down (urine problems) & it's best to avoid all busses at rush hour.
I am laughing out loud!! The bus is pretty disgusting & every time I ride it I do think that in my head. But, I hate driving more & it really is convenient -- at least where CLC & I live!
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